It's 0518 and I'm having a BAD bout with insomnia. It's too warm even with the windows open. And I can't get comfortable at all. My mini fridge seems louder than normal. The paper guy ran up and down the stairs making lots of noise. I'm thirsty. I'm SO tired but I can't fall asleep. I figured maybe that if I started writing maybe it would ( Read more... )

Patterns; I hate them, they like me. I always seem to follow the same patterns. I don't know why it happens but it does. They subtly change somewhat everytime but for all intended purposes they are the same. Sick of bein alone. I guess that holds true for a lot of people. I've given up trying. I guess I don't have anything special ya know? ( Read more... )

So this morning my life changed again. I woke up an hour before work to go have breakfast with my mom and step dad. (my step dad raised me so I consider him my real dad) They've been divorced for almost 8 years. So we're sitting at the table and I give my dad a run down of my grades for the quarter and then we eat in silence for a little bit. ( Read more... )

If anyone else that reads this has their own 'place' tell me about it. I'd be interested to hear about it.

This is all going to sound really queer or whatever but I wanted to write it down maybe to give people a better visualization. I don't know how many people actually can relate but I have a place inside that I go to when I need to relax. Kind of like a happy place. Like the cave the guy had in Fight Club. I want to try and describe it. Oddly ( Read more... )

HOLY FUCK WE ALL NEED A CHANGE

How can this mean anything to me? Have time to kill between now and english. We're watching 'One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest' and then we have to write a review on it for our midterm. Pretty easy stuff, plus it's a cool movie. Not much been going on. Seems like a friend of mine has hit a rough spot and I feel bad since I've been there so I'm ( Read more... )

To those who want to judge, I haven't written any of this for you and until I do your opinions are worth about as much as dog shit ( Read more... )

All I want in life is to be happy. That sums it up. So anyways, worked my ass off this weekend but it was well worth it. We have a new worker named Monica that's extremely cool and very nice. To top it off she's drop dead gorgeous but I didn't say a word. Makes working much more enjoyable. Went to my NASA lab last friday... actually I should ( Read more... )

I don't mind stealing bread, from the mouths of decadence. But I can't feed off the powerless when my cup's already overfilled. But it's on the table, the fire's cooking, and they're farming babies and the slaves are all working. Blood is on the table the mouths are choking... but I'm goin hungry.
-Temple of the Dog: Hunger Strike-