neil and i are back together. he came over and we acted as if nothing had happened, it was already a given that we would be back together. i was really nervous and i felt like at any moment my knees were going to give out. i'm so happy, and i feel comfortable again.
i feel like i could try harder, and when i think back to 10 months ago i just start to cry, because it was everything i always wanted, and now i feel like i'm giving up when i could have a better attitude and just get over this and be happy