Chad shot me in the head.

The words that she spoke that night were buried deep under my skin like seeds in the ground. Like water to the seeds, an extensive amount of intoxicating chemicals helped to nurture the pain into a beautiful lively state of self-loathing. The coldness of my self-hatred was overwhelming and beginning to consume the warmth of the blood in my veins. ( Read more... )

It was as if each sound that found its way through the defenseless target, being a portal for all harmful intentions traveling through the airwaves to penetrate and be brought unwelcome to the confines of my uncomprehending mind, could not, despite the painful attempts and even more painful failure acceptances, find their way out. The words were ( Read more... )

its a feeling like someone taking an ice pick and teasing your chest with it by rubbing it across your skin. and then jamming it through every layer that protects your heart untill finally it goes through your heart and out the other side. and all the while your heart keeps on beating. it doesnt get put out of its misery. it doesnt stop beating. it ( Read more... )

im hurting so much

you make it seem so easy to do this to me

i still dont get it

We can cap the old times make playing only logical harm ( Read more... )

rich just burnt my hand. how lovely

yesterday was crazy. me, jared , and some other people were filming a movie. it was fun. then i got lit. i was messed-up all day ( Read more... )

warped tour was cool. i got to meet the singer of ima robot and all the guys from alkaline trio. i didnt smoke though. i was afraid of getting my pipe tooken away so i didnt bring it. oh well. next time.

im fucking tired.... im gunna leave for warped tour in just a bit. its gunna be awesome