no one can embarass me more than i embarass myself.
let's keep yesterday a really big secret, ok?

what miracle is this? this giant tree
it stands ten thousand feet high
but doeasn't reach the ground. still it stands
it's roots must hold the sky.

le sigh. i can't figure out if mark danielewski is crazy or brilliant. reading house of leaves again. eek! i've read it a million times and it still scares scares scares me. it's the kind of scared ( Read more... )

i'm nervous my eyes will itch later, but i'm going out and i can't find any of the makeup i use usually. all i have is the dregs of high school careers past. wish me luck.

most of the skin is gone from my left wrist. i wish i knew how it happened.

also my roommate has a boy in her room and i don't care except to be jealous.

love songs, love stories, and love poems have taken over my life.
i've become a (hesitant) romantic.
who knew?

well i didn't win, but neither did you. only texas seems to have come out on top, however no one in that great state seems to recognize the prize.

moving on to plan B: fireworks are forever.

a week in the life of the ethnically indeterminate ( Read more... )

it's fairly clear that this "life" of mine is just a cruel, twisted version of the truman show. these sorts of things simply don't happen in real life. it HAS to be a joke.

i need to go home, take a shower, rest my eyes and rest my brain. go outside, lay in puddingstone,  breathe in the sun until it goes down. drink lemonade spiked with vodka and laugh about things.

i am convinced this course of action is the most effective way to shake this mood i'm in.

i'm reading a book that's reminding me how much love there is in the world, even in the midst of incredible suffering. and how far we can get on the kindness of strangers. and how much we can offer by simply being that kind stranger.

my heart is swelling.