And the stupid thing is that her physical absence has not made the loneliness worse. Not at all. If anything it is easier without her here. I don't exist on the false hope that she won't cheat. The false hope that she would lend a hand around the house. The false hope that she wouldn't blame our youngest son for having special needs ( Read more... )

How can a person pine for a shit relationship? How does that happen? What sort of Stockholm syndrome sets in, twisting our synapses. I can look through old journals and see how miserable I was with her. Why do I miss her. Jesus, even the kids are adjusting better than me ( Read more... )

Heidi left today. After 21 years of marriage, she does not love me. has not loved me for longer than I can guess. It seems only the online people can complete her.

Thought I might as well set out proving the level of nerd I am in this opening entry. Me and my oldest totally geeking out in front of the TARDIS from Dr Who.
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