I haven't touched this thing in ages. And I used to think it was because I was getting a hold of everything and I wouldn't need it any more. But the truth is, I do. I miss my friends in Oklahoma, and being down there and with no one to come and see me killed me. I guess actually going to Oklahoma and seeing my friends are two completely different ( Read more... )

Dear People-

The wall last night was tenderly taken down and all the tape removed off of your letters. The letters will be put up with tacks for less damage this time (Though none of your letters were destroyed during the process.

The wall may be put back up under the following conditions.

People will start writing me again.

The following ( Read more... )

Tonight I found out some one has an issue with me, because the way that I look. Just when I was beginning to feel good about myself, so strong and independent, it all came crashing down on me ( Read more... )

I've been boy crazy. I'll admit it. O.o But its better now that I've cooled down. What the hell was I doing with Justin and Alex any ways? Both were horrible influences on me. I think I have more regrets out of those two relationships then any thing else. I had fun with Alex, yes, but I don't think it was right for me to stick around with some one ( Read more... )

Hi people- quick update ( Read more... )

New love is here again for me ( Read more... )

Every ones pissed at me.

I can't blame them really. I think its time to disapear for a while and revamp myself. I've become a whore, and I just need to sit back and really think about my emotions. I wrote a crappy poem for health, and yeah, Nathan's wigging out over it.

He's all pretty on the Ecstasy-
With his eyes so wide.
Now the world to him ( Read more... )

Good things are beginning to happen!

XIXVNajlaVXIX [6:48 P.M.]:  GOD DAMN
XIXVNajlaVXIX [6:49 P.M.]:  its updating again
eBEAR [6:49 P.M.]:  XD
eBEAR [6:49 P.M.]:  %?
XIXVNajlaVXIX [6:49 P.M.]:  I dunno 
XIXVNajlaVXIX [6:49 P.M.]:  I guess its done
XIXVNajlaVXIX [6:49 P.M.]:  its like resized my screen like mad
XIXVNajlaVXIX [6:49 P.M.]:  XD
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Im forever down in the cellar
Waiting in the cold of winter
Staring out that frosted window
For that one beam of light
Shine on me,
Shine on me.
I need the sun again.
When will there be time again
How did I ever manage to see your face?
That time of grace.
Could it just of been pretend?
I need the sun again to
Shine on me.

When sad news keeps on ( Read more... )

Tomorrows Olivia's memorial service is being held. Poor Shawn, I wish I was there for him, to just hold him and make it all better for him. How I just want to feel what its like to hold him in my arms, and I just want every thing to be okay for him.

I've been drinking, so I've been listening to sad music and getting all my pain and sadness out. It ( Read more... )