For the past few nights I have not been able to sleep at all, and have laid in bed, completely awake. I am not sure why but I have not only been awake but I have also been hyper-aware of my surroundings. My fan has some sort of problem with it and it makes a noise, seemingly at random. There is a pattern to it though, it is just not completely ( Read more... )

I just watched the movie 'Raging Bull' with Adam and Kelly-- it is a good, well-directed, moving movie, but it is also an extremely depressing and distressing movie. The central theme of the movie is regret, which is an emotion I have always felt more powerfully than others. The climax of the movie is when the regret finally strikes. The ( Read more... )

When you are learning something new, there are a set of stages you generally go through. The first stage is one of confusion and bewilderment, where you are lost in a sea of not understanding what is going on at all. It is difficult to retain any facts you have been exposed to at this point because you have no framework within which to insert them ( Read more... )

This web site changed how I thought about competitive games: Play to Win. The articles on Playing to Win, Deception and the Yomi Layer article are all applicable to all competitive, strategic games.

After dinner with L., the waitress brought out a small plate of cantaloupe, honeydew and watermellon as a sort of desert. I like watermellon but I cannot stand cantaloupe and honeydew. L. asked me what it was about cantaloupe and honeydew I did not like-- I thought about it but could not put what I did not like about them into words. I cannot admit ( Read more... )

This is mainly for daft.


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I was talking to my friend Katherine today, and she mentioned she had a gun flashed at her the other day-- she said that putting the gun into the little innocuous bumping-into-each-other disagreement totally changed everything. Death was now possible, and she walked away wondering if she was going to make it to the end of the street. I have also ( Read more... )

Three things:

First, a dream. I am walking down a street and I do not know where I am so I keep looking into the foyer of buildings, hoping to recognize my apartment. My phone is ringing but I am ignoring it because I cannot focus on anything else except figuring out where I am. As I pass the next building, I see my roommate, Adam, trying to get ( Read more... )

I have been sick lately, so I have been sleeping a lot ( Read more... )

Adam http://www.livejournal.com/users/adamfletcher posted in his livejournal a bit about playing games and being too competitive and it got me thinking about why I like games so much ( Read more... )