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love astranged life rearranged wilten rose rot in sunlight ( Read more... )

well for 2 days now i have worried about my Ricky..he got into a fight with his mother the druggy and she told him to get out..im not sure if she ment for him to get out in stay out and never come back or just get out for the day..if i dont hear from him today i am going to worry myself to death...bc i mean i am so in love with him and if i had my ( Read more... )

everyday i so dread when my roomie wakes up..can this nightmare be any worse..? yes it can..he yells he screams he demands all the time..and i am tryen to get out of this hell by moving and the ppl are like oh you cant move..you have to take your name off of the lease then we can transfer you...but that will take close to half a yr..so what am i ( Read more... )

fear confusion lost all in one dont want to lose what i have hate for myself what i look like he is so perfect in everyway..me myself flawed ugly not what i wish to be lost in grief of wants an wishies hopes and doubt..his pasts better than i and here i am just as ugly as sin not the same ever again...hate encreasts my heart mind keeps me apart.. ( Read more... )

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well i had Melissa read the journal that was the only way i could think that i could let her know what i felt like...she isnt happy ( Read more... )

well that since i am home actully talking to My Ricky i cant help to fell like this is all a dream..ive open my heart to him..completely..not like i have done with anyone for 3 close to 4 yrs..not since before my son was born..i shut myself down to men in general and just flirted around..i went after women instead..i loved the wrong way and that i ( Read more... )

why are the feelings so amused tangled up and used ( Read more... )