Forgot I had this journal. A lot has changed. Nostalgia swept we away.

I'm barely using this journal anymore. I'm using Penzu more and it's private which I like. I moved to Canton, and lost one of my cats...had a better summer than last years. Things are much better now. Might even be getting a new job. I don't like change but all these changes are good. Haven't modeled in like a year. Slowly getting things done. Wish ( Read more... )

...it's not enough. I'm so angry I can't hold a pen to write. My tolerance is narrows a little more. Trust given is not trust guaranteed. After relaying some serious personal concern I get slapped with anger. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

Wishful Thinking List ( Read more... )

I wonder why certain things happen to people and not to others. Ok time to stop brooding and back to job hunting.

Completely heartbroken by Sara Douglass' passing. Her books kept me company and took me on amazing adventures. When I bought 'The Devil's Diadem' I didn't know it would be the last book I'd get by her. This is crushing. I love the books she wrote and am glad that there are a few she was able to write and publish. She will always be one of my ( Read more... )

Been trying to eat healthier and work my way up to running. I felt like I was dying last week when I jogged a little. I'm so out of shape it's ridiculous. I've been substituting some things I used to eat for something better. I need to get more protein and iron in me...I barely eat any meat and fish is not an option for me. Now that I have so much ( Read more... )

Stung by a bee...failed vision test...losing my job at the bookstore...warring with someone who is being a real pain in the ass...didn't get to go to Ny...my car is making a new bad sound...wtf. And I'm still sneezing every damn day...that's a new one. Was talking on the phone, very rare for me & J comes in and starts with his shit. Can't he just ( Read more... )

...it's not even 2 yet and I can't wait till this day is a lost memory. Teach me to trust someone with so much. People can kiss my ass I'm not going out of my way for anyone anymore. I just get bs and shit on. This is why I love my kitties. They don't talk back, and they don't make wild assumptions from my written words cuz they can't even read. ( Read more... )

Having a lovely week. That's right more than one day. Looks like I might be going to Georgia this summer to hang with Lylia. And mebbe squeeze in a shoot. I have been doing more modeling and last sunday did a cool nude shoot with Scott Foltz who is amazing ( Read more... )