scratch the last entry. everything is fine, great, wonderful. i talked alot and told him about my day, and he gave me the one or two sentence summary of his. Normal beyond words lol. i love it ( Read more... )

I think the breeze is starting to settle, and everything is ok again. I said what I needed so badly to say, and I think things are gonna be alright. But whether things are a little shaky or tense for a few days still or we go right back to talking the way we used to, june 2nd is going to come home and i'm giving him the biggest 'i missed you' hug ( Read more... )

arghh. im taking my 10 steps back tonight.

on the flip side, only 11 more days on this diet. and then i can eat some good food again ( Read more... )

i think things are better. i'm certainly happy i came home today instead of yesterday, because i am in such a better mood and mindset today about leaving. i'm about to go get laura from work, and my biggest goodbye ended up not being so bad after all, which was completely what i was not expecting. right now everything that was upsetting me and ( Read more... )

ok so i don't learn from my previous mistakes. never have, never seem to will. there must be something seriously wrong with me if i just keep going like nothing's going on. i'm just chillin and drinking with matt and kevin and i'm having a good old time and ( Read more... )

i'm having one of those nights where i feel no one loves me, i care about everyone way more than i should, that people don't deserve me, and that i have never touched or had an impact on a single person ( Read more... )

I think I'm doing ok. I'm ok. The hurt is starting to not throb as much. I may laugh and smile now, but in reality, deep down, all I am is sad. And heartbroken. I'm so used to seeing him everyday. It's so strange to not be around him. Thankfully, I had Laura to sleep with me last night. I don't know what I'm going to do when the time comes ( Read more... )

Oh insecurity. How much I despise and hate you.

I need my baby.

I just registered for my classes for next semester...5 days early. The Dean said if I had any issues with anything, to use his name in Registrar and go talk to them. So basically my issue was that if I waited until when I was supposed to register (next Tues. afternoon), I would've been closed out of basically everything I needed and since I'm ( Read more... )