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[roseren]

I wish I knew what I was getting myself into with everything. I usually feel good, but I still feel like I am constantly begging for situations that are going to eventually hurt me one way or another. I suppose that is life though...one risk after another and hope you have some good times along the way. I want to be as wise as i pretend to be. I

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[numair]

You can always call...if you want.

[catguy]

I think I might know how you feel. Sometimes I feel like I look for situations that will hurt me, too. For example, lately in my budding juggling career, I'm constantly telling myself, "Taylor, I think it's time for you to move on to juggling razor-sharp carving knives," and I have to say to myself, "Taylor, are you nuts? You'll lose a finger!" But I can't shake that feeling that it's what I need to do.

I guess the important thing is to just take these kinds of things slow. Work with bread knives or wear thick gloves until you're comfortable with yourself, then move on to greater things when you're ready.

[numair]

Btw e-mail me or something. Just because we still have 2 weeks is no excuse to not talk to me yanno.

shower

[ineffiblenee]

Ah, yes, the shower, my pancea. However, it is not an effective one in the case of panic attacks. As in "I'm having a panic attack!"..."Ok, now I am wet and having a panic attack... now I am wet, and have soap in my eyes, and am still having a panic attack, dammit!"

Anyway, if it helps any, apparently every thinking person who goes to college goes crazy at some point. At least according to Susan, and her best friend Janice. (This is happening to me, and has happened to both of Janice's children. The upshot : both of her kids are in their 30s now and are, by all appearances, happy. The downside : some of us are not that patient....)

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[roseren]

Danke for the concern, dear. This was just a small bout of PMS-induced insanity that I just had to get off my chest. Probably should have just left it private, but at the time I wanted to see some reactions. Yay for yours!

On the topic of panic attacks, I understand what you go through. One of best friends at home used to get them constantly, and I would sometimes be the one to help her. I had one or two back during the spring, but I have seriously chilled out since then. I am probably can not tell you anything you do not already know about them, but dramamine helps, and so does having someone count to 10 slowly. You concentrate on the numbers and regain control.

panic attacks

[ineffiblenee]

Thanks for the tips, and I'm glad you're feeling better. My panic attacks have pretty much abated,*finger crossed*. Hope all is well:).

as wise as you pretend to be

[ineffiblenee]

Oscar Wilde was a big fan of adopting the pose, because, quite often, the content will follow. Besides, isn't that what Budddhism is getting at - that all of these things are just poses? So why not pick one that makes you happy? Granted, my sole involvement with Buddhism is self-help literature and beliefnet.com, so I may be totally off base on that one. Anyway, I think the advice to continue acting as if what you want to be true is true is still sound enough - do it for long enough, and eventually you convince yourself, which is most of the battle...