Im tired ( Read more... )

I feel better now. Its just that a lot of shit was going on in my life for a while and i just kind of hid it and didnt let so much of it out...and last night it finally got to me in the worst way and I kind of lost myself in all the emotion...its odd becuase Im a very competent and secure person but last night I lost it and broke down. I started ( Read more... )

Well today sucked, I even almost slit my wrists...not to kill myself, i would never do that, but to see if it might help relieve some of the pain...I heard it might help reieve pain...pain takes away from pain and pain can be very soothing, I just wanted to see if it would help. I was so sad but now im a little better. Going to try t make things ( Read more... )

I hate my boss...asshole.

Well today I went to the city and to Rasputin....best fucking record stor3e besides Ameoba....well thats where I got my first HIM CD so it is the ebst...but Ameoba is the best in selection...well, tommorrow Im going toi my uncles houseefor my nonis birthday dinner.
Well I want to go and get more CDs...that would make me happy.
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So I mght get to see Ricky again in December...right after Christmas....that would be fucking awesome ( Read more... )

I love Ricky more than anything in the world. I finally got to see him on Thursday. Hes more than perfect. I love him more than anyone and anything and would give anything to be with him right now. I cant believe how hard it is to see someone you love go away..in my case, go home to Washington. I've forgotten how hard it is missing someone.... ( Read more... )

Well tommorrow I leave for Oregon....WHERE WE ARE MEETING RICKY!!!! I am so excited...its going to be so great. I cant fucking wait ( Read more... )

Wow...my seven year old cousin ran up to me, opened my door, popped his head and with a HUGE smile says to me, "Allyson, my poop is green."