I'm so weak. I hate the fact that I'm so weak. No matter how much I can pretend, no matter how I can lie to others, I can't lie or pretend to myself.

If I can only believe in what I say... If that was, oh-so easy!

I wish i can have a cigarette right now... there's way too much stuff on my mind.

Self-loacthing is such a terrible thing. it's time consuming, completely and utterly unproductive. It's definitely what I would define as a viscious circle ( Read more... )

One of my friend read my last entry, and thought "I think you'll forever be looking for the perfect lay until you open up Shan's Agency and rating system to catalog all the bad lays in town as a reference guide so that we can ALL avoid them." She convinced me that she has a point. So I think I'm gonna do that. I'm going to create this damned ( Read more... )

I'm fucked. I am so fucked up. I don't care about a lot of things. well maybe that's not the case, it's more like I don't care about a lot of things. I'm just really laid back about a lot of things. I don't know. At this point I think I'm pretty fucked up in the head. Especially with the relationship/sex department. I'm fucked up. Oh no, I have no ( Read more... )

Recently I've met too many people (actually just ladies, cause that's all I've been meeting), who's given up on love. They are so young, barely into mid 20s. They have their whole life ahead of them. What are you gonna do for th rest of their lives? No love, no soul-linking connections, no intimacy, no expressions for how much they love, or feel ( Read more... )

I had a very interesting talk with someone the other day about sex. I'm in my winter mode, so I don't want sex all that much. However, I was thinking. Maybe I don't really want sex these days because I get bored of sex after a while. It's the same motions, the same positions. I just want something exciting, something that would thrill me during sex ( Read more... )

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erase the person's answers before you and girls fill out your part, guys fill out yours ( Read more... )

What do we truly have in this world that belongs to ourselves? Answer: us. We really don' have anyone in this fucking world. If our happiness does not come from within, then we are never truly happy. You can't depend your happiness entirely on someone else. What happens when that person leaves you? You gonna fall apart? Wallowing in your own ( Read more... )

I definitely like being me right now. Well at least for the past month or so. I have people that I hang with, catching up with people that I haven't seen in ages. I don't know, it's kool right now. I definitely felt a lot better now as supposet to from last semester into this summer ( Read more... )