i'm bothered when you leave the window open ( Read more... )

i don't like the things that have been happening lately. i'm tired of trying to help people, trying to fix people, comfort people. i'm sick of never being able to make the right decision and only following through with the wrong ones. i'm over doing things before i think about them and regretting it later. i need to somehow become that intelligent ( Read more... )

lately i have been flirting with the increasingly more attractive path of self-destruction.

i need someone to help me. im so confused.

i'm glad you're over, january.
you were a bitch of a month.

I LOVE GETTING SPEEDING TICKETS IT IS SO AWESOME.

it is depressing how looking at a complete stranger can make your hate yourself. it is strange how a smile can change your opinion of someone. Though only for a few halves of a second. being human is so painful. how we must make up our minds about every single issue, every person. we live to hate and we live to love, anything in between is rounded ( Read more... )

school ends the 19th and then starts up again january 12th. i didn't do well in most of my classes but what else is new... i aced linguistics, it was interesting and the teacher was really great. as for the other classes, bluh. last time i checked i was able to raise my F in history to a D and i just turned in this awful book report. if i can't at ( Read more... )

the proposition yard sign wars are getting pretty ugly ( Read more... )

i learned this weekend that my obsession with schemes for getting out of stockton are a waste of time. moving somewhere else is not going to make me happy. i am just an unhappy person, it's not unbearable its just normal i guess. maybe. i don't have to move away to feel legitimate. i think i need to build on myself more before i go doing something ( Read more... )