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[roughsex]

i had a little too much fun this weekend and last night, thus resulting in my hoarse throat and painful swallowing. seriously, it sucks ass.
plus we were having a slumber party at kristen's house and now i may not be in attendance after all.

i guess i'm going to bed now.
this all sure sucks.

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[roughsex]

all my posts have the word "suck" in them.
or the phrase, "like totally!"
and almost always the word "awesome."

this is the kind of sophomoric drivel i write these days.

[creamypants]

why are you being so hard on yourself, K?

[roughsex]

because the minute someone challenges me at anything, or becomes better- i wilt. that's pretty much it. besides that, people want you to take control of things until you take their control away- then you are suddenyl a threat and therefore punishable by being alienated. i let it happen, don't get me wrong. but i gues that's life, right?

my headspace has been nothing but negative lately.
another grand thng about being manic depressive with long cycles.
this disease robs your future and it is VERY difficult to turn things around once the ball starts rolling downhill.

but to answer, i don't know why i am so hard on myself.
i destroy everything i love.

[creamypants]

You are so honest. I have my cycles too, though I suspect, they aren't comparable to yours in degree.

I believe in you, K... from so far away... I wish I could do something simple to make it go away.

[jamiedbld]

i too have my cycles as i'm certain everyone does....your mention of long cycles...i'm guessing this means the down last long...i'm sorry and i wish there were something that one of us could do for you other than offer our company along your downward journey...i've felt the sad darkness of many i've met here in LJ land and equally shared in the rise into the light again. i wish i could hold your hand tightly, tight enough for you to feel it even at the darkest depths of your 'cycle'. i'm missing you and i'm loving you...hold on ((((you))))

[mychanges]

K,

Hi this is jasmine (onesoul) and I added you under the paperb account to my private journal but I wasn' tsure if you use this one more now and I should add this one. Anyway, I'm really strugglign right now a LOT and you have been such an inspiration to me that I would really like your feedback. I need some support. If you can give some that would be great. If I need to add this account instead of teh other one that is fine just let me know. I'm just really falling apart and I could use some advise from someone who has been through some of this stuff. Thanks

[roughsex]

what are you struggling with exactly?

my email is paperballet@gmail
and my AI is kelly colston - but you'll have to tell me yours so i can add you, b/c it's friends only.

iheartstickers and daddyfetish on yahoo.

xoxo
let me know what's up, okay babe?