Life is so strange

[rowankline]

That I am stuck in a strange place. My dad is very deeply hurt, He found her body. He was the person who found her on her knees on the floor looking for something. He called me to find out why she was the color she was and I explained to him that the blood stops pumping and settles. He had me check a few other things as well and he cannot get the

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[toodleskitty]

At the end of July, my Aunt Claire who was like a second mother to me, will be the second anniversary of her death. I was just thinking tonight, before I even read your post that the pain has eased. I believe in an after-life. I believe she is with her husband, her first son, and all the dear friends she lost in her 85 years. I believe she is "dancing with the ancesters" as Tori Amos would say. This eases my sadness.
To be perfectly blunt, if she's just pushing up daisies, she's out of pain at least.

The first year was the hardest. No doubt. And I'd be on a bus or in the grocery store and suddenly think of her and weep. I couldn't help it.

I feel so much more at peace, for her and myself after almost two years.

Time does heal. Just give yourself time...

I hope this helped at all...

[rowankline]

It does help. When grandpa died about a year and a half ago - I was relieved. He was out of pain and discomfort. Even at her worst, she looked fine. Now the kids are swooping like vultures. All I want is the park bench she bought about a year ago (we can really use it in the back yard and my daddy put it together for her) and if I can get it, her wedding ring. We shall see. The reason I want that is because she had to wait until her 50th wedding anniversary to get a diamond. I am laughing about it because the ring Steve got me was marked down from $700 to $150 and I fell in love with it the first time I saw it. The band that goes with it actually cost $400 :)

[toodleskitty]

I can relate to the vulture part...
Aunt Claire's kids are probably making her roll in her grave...

I hope you find some peace in this time and the bench and the ring sound like reasonable requests from a thoughtful and caring grand-daughter.

I'll light a candle for yas. :)

[rowankline]

I literary let her China service slip away. Sort of weird how things happen, eh? I took an old basin and pitcher that had seen better days because I thought it may have been my great great granny's. Either way, I really am numb.

[_jeannie_]

*hugs*

[rowankline]

Thank you. I am not highly religious but I do believe that friends are sent to take care of us during these times.