if i believed in a god.....he couldnt even save me.

ive been listening to a lot of system of a down lately! i forgot how much i liked them.

I cry when angels deserve to die..........

I cant get no satisfaction <3

this one is for my homies

my snake spit his mouse up. im afraid the feeding failed. <3

constant knots of my stomach wall.
wont stop destroying
till i comsumed us all.
Demolition heart ache
keeping alive by my own mistakes

i cant think straight.
my mind is gone.
Anatomical box of lost and found.
and i feel so empty.

so empty..........

i just smoked a blunt.

that is all<3

sometimes a cry. and i feel like i have no reason to. i think a couple months of holding in my feelings is catching up with me. i dont like whats about to happen. im second guessing every lil thing. pick every thing apart. pick away at it till it just disapears. fuck <3

an inturnal battle
a life long lesson
struggling to be beautiful
unbalanced photograph
trying to be reminded
of the time i knew who i was
and life burns
to ash.

my day has a late start. today i cried cuz i blinked and dispeared. is this what i want?
am i really here. now as 311 plays i realize im late for school. and the cycle continues....over ( Read more... )

i really dont know how i feel lately. sometimes i play things off and act like its no big deal. to better perpair myself for the break down. i cant wait for change. things remain too simular, same shit different day.its all up to the wins and loses in the games you play ( Read more... )

im in school. damn this shit has got me fucked up. im so stressed out. and i have so much work to do. my deadline is may 24th. thats so soon!!! grrrrrr. damn i just want this shit to be over with. i know ill get it done! i just cant stand the stress sometimes.....

shauna came home yesterday<3 she helped me pick out a snake!

<3