Pretty sure life is confusing. One minute I'm supposedly over someone, the next I'm back in their arms crying. Shiiiiit, I'm fucked. I guess this is what you get when you are madly in love with someone. Although I do not approve of certain situations, I'm still in the mix. WTF? Rannnnndom. Oh well, I guess I will hope until he gets married or moves ( Read more... )

WTF was I thinking? Ewwwwwwwwwww. He is like the worst person ever. I hate him. I've never hated him before, and I LOVE that I hate him. Thank God for Katie, Jonathan, Brea, Isaac, and everyone else for showing me the light. I AM SO HAPPPPPPPY!!!!!!!

Well well well, I haven't made a single entry in what seems like forever now...Things haven't changed much, I'm still madly in love with someone that doesn't feel the same way. Woot, go me!? Getting Comcast, that's pretty sweet! A temporary fix I guess..............FUCK! I want a boyfriend so bad! The only problem is, it can't be anyone that's not ( Read more... )

Gahhhhhhhhh. I need to shoot something. My relationship fell apart. I JUST WANT IT TO WORK! This is gay. How could someone just leave and go to someone else so quickly? It's not fucking fair. I love him. He wants her. I lose. What will I do when they have sex? I think I will die. That means he's not mine anymore :( I wanted to marry him. I still do ( Read more... )

Tonight has been quite the adventure! I wonder how long I spent online fighting with Larrykins?! He has said some horrible things to me before, but none like tonight. Apparently he is on a date with some very well off person from Lake O. He brought up my mother again. Sad day. I do not get this, I say I love you to him, he says yeah right, and ( Read more... )

BAAAAAAAAHHAHAHHAHAH. What the fuck was I thinking? I was just re-reading all of my entries over the last few months, and realized how much of an idiot I sound like. To all that read this, I am very sorry. I guess this is the only place I can write about my relationships with men. I can't do it on Myspace, because too many people read my shit. ( Read more... )

Well, I guess this is a temporary fix to my insomnia...Tomorrow I really need to go get white lights. I HATE multi-colored lights on trees. Ew. Anyway, I don't know if I'm going to do red bulbs, or silver and blue...Probably silver and blue, but oh well. If I had the money, I would buy some different wall art for this place. I really dislike the ( Read more... )

I'm rather amused...I think the only person that knows about me writing shit down in here is Montana. Dannnnnnngerous ( Read more... )

Well, I am about to set up the Christmas tree, and I'm rather happy! Today hasn't been as bad as I thought it was going to be...I'm not really all that upset about fucker wanting to be friends. I don't really think I want to be his friend, but I don't want to tell him that. I'm just going to leave him alone. He will realize what he did in time, and ( Read more... )

Pretty sure I'm getting sick of fucking nonsense with dumb niggers. One minute it's I love you, the next it's "wtf mate, we are friends"...Lmao, bi-polar?

Sick of it ALLLLLLL. My dreams are shot to shit...Mark is dead. That's sad :( TODAY HAS NOT BEEN A GOOD DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fuck.

Ew.

NIGGERS.