I'm angry at Neil Bookman.  He's an arrogant, self-absorbed, selfish asshole.  The reason I hate him so much, is because he is exactly like someone I know and care about.  I'm mad at Neil because he abonded someone he said he cared about.

I HATE NEIL BOOKMAN!

So lately, I've been feeling bad for myself.  Well, not lately, more like just tonight.  I'm not sure why.  Maybe because I feel like I'm falling apart. Slowly but surely, I am.  I feel it.  I can see my life deteriorating around me, and I'm not quite sure how to stop it.  To better explain, picture Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (minus the ( Read more... )

Trust n. - belief in the honesty, reliability, etc. of another
Love n. - strong affection
--According to Webster's New World Pocket Dictionary Fourth Edition

Trust- don't have it.  Love- not in it.

What does this mean for me?
This means that I am bitter, and angry, and upset, and hurt.

What does this mean for me and my relationships?
Oh, if you only knew ( Read more... )

This is my angry face.

When does it go from not wanting to hang up the phone, to not even being able to hold a conversation?
When does it go from saying "I love you" as much as possible, to hiding your feelings when you see them?
When does it go from listening to songs that remind of you him and make you happy, to listening to songs that remind you of him and make you miss ( Read more... )

Very few people understand how little it takes to make someone feel better.  You don't have to sit there and listen to them bitch and offer words of wisdom.  If they wanted advice bad enough.  And most of the time, they already know what they should do when they ask for advice, they just need to be reassured.  Sometimes all it takes is a little " ( Read more... )

I have so much on my mind and nothing to say.  And yet I'm here, attempting to write in the beloved LJ.

It's just so frustrating sometimes.  Some days I swear I know I'm gonnna be okay with everything that's going on.  And other days get so hard that at times I question whether or not I can make it through them.  And I feel so ridiculous because it' ( Read more... )

This is my attempt to sort everything out ( Read more... )

I DON'T KNOW.
who knew that three little words could mean so much?

Summer has officially ended. After tonight, it will officially be the school year. I will have to bring books to class everyday, I will have papers due, I will have to learn to speak spanish, I will have to understand Ethnic Diversity in the classroom, and I will begin to learn how to teach High School kids the basics of English so that they can ( Read more... )