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Lydia has caught a cold. Miles is recovering from strep throat and Brian has a raging case of grumpiness and strep throat. I have I don't know what but it involves wanting to throw up and kidney pain. I believe I will have a beer and go to sleep soon.

Fascinating I know.

I have this idea of decoupaging the closet doors. There are some really cool ( Read more... )

I wont try to catch this journal up to speed, there has been lives lived since I wrote last.
I was pregnant last time I wrote out my feelings and experiences here.

Now I sit crouched with back pain, watching Brian and the baby Lydia Rose sleep ( Read more... )

Maybe if I write about it, the baby will come sooner. I am sitting here gushing all over, I mean literally. My water is broken, just like with Miles and around the same time. 6 in the morning. I should be asleep now, just incase this baby decides to come tonight. I'm not and I was just reading homebirth stories. One of them struck me, the midwife ( Read more... )

Monday the 26th - Miles and I went to the metropark by the river. It
was very peaceful and we had a great time. One the way back home, down the windy tree covered road he said, "Mom thanks for everything you've done for me." What a treat to the heart, soul and ears.

Tuesday the 27th - School starts. The teacher seems a big cool and distant but ( Read more... )

I am so sick of my brother and his fucked up life. I am trying to practice loving detachment, however if I don't see him for a long time the happier I'll be. What a asshole, a user, a moralless bastard. Fuck him, fuck Sam and his crazy lying bride.

Ok that felt better. I love my brother, I just hate that he has shown no inkling of concern for my ( Read more... )

Had a nice dream about Rollins this am. We went to a theme park and I had him sit in a big bowl of coffee beans, I'd get a handful and let them run down his thighs, we were really hitting it off and just hanging out being happy. I also met a cat that had what looked like a toupee on top of his head. He was very nice. Henry also told Miles that he ( Read more... )

3:00 in the morning, thunderstorms outside. Brian is asleep as he has been for hours, since about 8:00. We are not pregnant, I am pregnant, he gets to feel the baby move and all the perks. I get to be in pain and an insomniac and the one who worries. Fucker.

I sleep better when he is not in bed. I don't know what that says. Yes I do, but I'm ( Read more... )

I think for pregnant women the temperature may be 80 but it feels 90. From all that blood and extra stuff
in there.

Went grocery shopping, panted like a dog, so hot. Brought in cold stuff, left rest in car.

Talked to my brother, whose reply to Mom getting married is 'finally' apparently he forgot all the abuse ( Read more... )

A beautiful day - went to Independance Lake, sat on the quilt and watched Miles make a sandcastle. Rough night though, not alot of sleep.

Mom called to tell me she got married while on vacation. Shocked and sad, drudged up some stuff, a few tears. Samantha came over and we went to Bandito's. Why marry some guy who treats you like a non person? I ( Read more... )