does anyone ever notice how my livejournal subjects or "titles" usually have no relevance to the topic? I think i just really noticed that. So, my friends, i am going to teach you how to "read" my LJ subject titles. If they REALLY, REALLY have no relevance to the post then they most likely have a hidden meaning. Example, An entry that I wrote in ( Read more... )

bjustspud: so what r u doing to nite

rrockmysocks: sleeping

bjustspud: why

rrockmysocks: because that is what people do at night

The Epoxies rock my socks even when i am not wearing them.

I feel like i have been in this gigantic maze for so long. I can't find my way out. Every time that i think that i am even remotely close to finding my way, i come to a dead end, and then i am forced to start all over again from the beginning. Do you know that feeling that you get when you are lost? You are so frantic, and your heart starts ( Read more... )

How is it that an individual can be so immersed in people that love and care about them, yet still feel so empty and alone? It all just seems so fake, and i desperately need it to be real. It doesn't make sense, but at the same time, I guess it does. If John lennon was right, and all you need really is love, then my life definitely has a gigantic ( Read more... )

my brain is so confused. I don't know what to do. One moment, i think that i like/love/whatever, someone or something and the next i dont really have an interest it them/it anymore. I'm letting the people that i DO love and truly care about tear me apart and leave me empty. It's getting to the point where I cant ignore the pain anymore. It is ( Read more... )

This week has been oh so splenderific. (i fucking wish) i got prescribed even more meds. (not at all surprising). haha. only people over 80 and kids with tons of problems have as many prescriptions as I do. although, being a lovely student at north hills prep, i dont feel so bad about it. I have one friend with 20 something prescriptions. ( ( Read more... )

the pain is here to stay.

nothing worth posting (or anything that any of you care about) is going on right now. My socks, that used to be white are now a deep red color. go figure. I am getting so sick of being blonde. I have been blonde for my whole life. I am either going to dye it lighter, or dye it almost black. meh meh meh.... maybe i will just not dye it at all. ( Read more... )

life sucks major fucking ass. I fucking hate it. there is no point to any of this dumb ass shit. I just want to get out of this fucking world. It is horrible. I cant wait until i am lucky enough to get sick and die. Or get in a firey car crash, or get pushed off a 20 story building, or fall off a cliff while hiking, or run out of oxygen while ( Read more... )