Smeared black ink... your palms are sweaty
And I'm barely listening to last demands
I'm staring at the asphalt wondering what's buried underneath
Where I am

I'll wear my badge... a vinyl sticker with big block letters adherent to my chest
That tells your new friends I am a visitor here...
I am not permanent
And the only thing keeping me dry is
Where I ( Read more... )

I decided upon a few things. 
Missing someone is a pointless sense of feeling.
Why do we, the human race feel though it is necessary to miss a certain someone, something, some place?
It is a point of comfort.
Unnecessary comfort.
Why can't we all make our ownselves happy?
One must rely on other things or people to obtain indestructible happiness?
Bull ( Read more... )

I recently decided that I drunk dial entirely way too often. 
-Pretty much every time I'm drunk.
 -Which is just about every night.

I can't decide if I'm drowning my sorrows in alcohol and cigarettes... 
-Do I even have sorrows to drown?

School started today... BOOOOO.
World's most boring english teacher. 
-Sounds like he's gunna croak any time soon.

I ( Read more... )

It has been forever ssince I've typed in this thing. I don't have cab;e or internet in my new appartment that I love so much... but I do find myself thinking about things that I would usually run to my computer to update my journal with.... hmm.

so many things have gone down.

Interview for delphi.
Drink too much.
2 hour phone call.
Encounter with a ( Read more... )

I don't want to go to sleep.
If I sleep, that means tomorrow will come.

Here, deep inside me, I don't want tomorrow to come.

We've gone through so much while living together, I don't want that to change.

-
We stood outside, on our last balcony chat and discussed.

-Discussed how life is changing so much.

We're getting older now, and this is what is ( Read more... )

I realized that I meet someone cool... talk shit, then freeze.

p.s. i don't know what i want in life.

lifein general.

Well, I just got back from Chicago last night... I had a blast. I went to the food show and sampled a lot of great food... and ate entirely way too much. I also went and seen the school that I will be going to november 07 and i'm prettyt pumped about moving to chicago. I can't freakin wait.... I love chicago.

We got our cable turned off at our ( Read more... )

Leaving for Chicago tomorrow morning. 
Excited yet upset I have to leave when my Grandma's not doing so well.
I'll be back tuesday night I belive.

My brother is making me sad again. Go freakin figure. He finds ways to upset me.

Just petty little shit.

Oh well... I'm going to CHICAGO.

And I'm checking out the school I'll be going to fall '07. Robin= ( Read more... )

figures. meet someone cool, and talk myself out of it.

i seen the man of my dreams today.

>>>from across the room./.

Didn't say a word.

>>>Didn't know what to say./.

So the dumb ass I am.

>>>Just looked away./.

Then realized that was stupid of me...