Well, today I slept 'til about 9:30 this morning. Then I headed over to the barn to hang out with Dani...that was fun ( Read more... )

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I went to the doctor this morning after having really bad chest pains when I headed off to work. It turns out i've managed to give myself chest wall muscle strains. And I've got all the symtoms that follow: dizziness, paleness, fever, headaches, severe pain, palpitations, and shortness of breath. It is very painful. It feels like someone is ( Read more... )

Welp, these past 2 days at work have been quite painful. I have worked 22.5 hours in 2 days all while being incredibly sick. Today was one of the worst days ever. And tomorrow I am guaranteed at LEAST 12 more hours tomorrow, maybe more ( Read more... )

I would just like to say last night was the best night I have had in as long as I can remember. And I'm guessing things will continue to get better for me. In the first time in what seems forever, I was truly happy.

I worked until 4 today. Then I stopped by my parents' house to pick up detergent and soap. Then came home and played counter strike for a while. After getting bored with that I met up with some guys from work at Friday's and ordered a "white russian" which is like a spiked milkshake almost. Went back to Dave's apt and had some more then came ( Read more... )

I've showed her constantly how much I love her. I tell her, show it in the things I do, the way I treat her. I've never loved someone more. When I talk to her she seems sincere in the things she says, but things happen, or don't happen, that make me think, "is she being real or just saying those things?" It hurts me beyond belief to think she is ( Read more... )

I want to start over with all these feelings I have for people. To forget all the bad times and countless times of messing up over and over with people would be something I desire. I feel there are so many comprimises in my life and I wish they'd go away. I wish I could tell certain people(s) how I feel about them but I am scared of what they ( Read more... )

I am very sad right now. Only one person knows why ( Read more... )

I am so confused about how people feel about me...I see so many different sides to people and it keeps me wondering how they really feel. Maybe I'll never know. Maybe it's not important (to me or them). I want to go away for a while. Away from everything and just about everyone.