...and this little masochist, is ready to confess, all the things, that I never thought that she could feel ( Read more... )

Still feeling miserably confused. Need guidance. How can things change in your head so quickly? I feel like I just stepped off a cliff, but instead of falling I am just hanging around in mid-air wondering what to do next. Have I been asleep? Was I sleeping?

I am sleeping tonight, for the first time, by choice, alone. My head is scrambling to find the answer to the question, who am I? Would you believe me if I told you that I had an epiphany? Suddenly I feel awake. I am terrified. Do I miss him now because I am not with him, or because I truly love him? I never make the hard decisions, I always ( Read more... )

How does the heart learn to adapt to love so quickly? Tire of it and move on? Is there ONE true love for any of us? Am I in love or in love with being in love? I haven't lost my breath in a long time. Haven't been so preoccupied. Questioning who I am and where I want to be. Where I am physically is not always where I am emotionally and I ( Read more... )

I am not crying over the loss of a brother per se, I am more crying for the loss of a childhood. As I look back I can see how selfish and spoiled I was, and the effect that had, I posioned everything with my antics and believe I took from those, what they were entitled too. Now I know, and wish I could put myself aside and let the glory of life he ( Read more... )

I lay in bed last night and the realization came upon me that I, was going to die. Not today or next month (god willing) but eventually I would get old and die. The funny part is I used to welcome death, I used to believe death was an awesome reprieve from the mundane existence of my unimportant youth. Death was glamorous, touched with fire and ( Read more... )