A lot of things are going differntly now than befor.  A lot of people are different than before.  And its safe to say that I am different than before.

I dont talk to the same people anymore.. not my matts or lucas and chad.  Not that I dont want to anymore.  things are diffent and its just hard.  I love to see everyone, its just icky to have to ( Read more... )

Tomorrow...well today Is marcs 21st birthday.. Marc is my roomate danas boytoy and So we are going to Crush... I dont like clubs or getting trashed..however Iam being forced to go and have a great top to wear so I guess Im going to drink up!  No class til 6 pm thurs. Yay.  I can sleep in.  Anyhoo A lot have been going down.  I havent gotten to see ( Read more... )

Classes are awsome.. i have been hangin with my roomates and the UT boys...A lot of parties.. well not a lot.. but more than I am used to.. more drinking...more....everything.  people are all up my butt about this guy who up until this week i thought they were all nuts and we were just friends.  becuase i have a lot of guy friends.. but i guess ( Read more... )

I Havent writtin in so long.. I have been doing so many new things with new ppl...trying to get comfy with my roomies and ut boys because thats who im around all the time.  We party.  Matt moved on campus. its awsome.  school starts tomorrow and apartently i have mean teachers.. but i will update that after i see for my self.

"I want to go blind so I dont have to see them together ( Read more... )

So I read this in Ms. Brandis Journal and I believe I have been thinking the same thing...except just not being able to put it into words.  "there's the person that you think you are, the person that you wish you were, and then the person that you really are."  I think that I am the three people she would be speaking Of.  I see myself as somthing I ( Read more... )

I am in a particulary odd sort of happy mood. Not because anything "wonderful" has happened...A few good things are in the midst. Okat so let me begin with a few days ago. I decided to go outside and take night shots.. which em and I keep saying were going to do...but never do. OKay so we are out there and Im holding my camera for the first ( Read more... )

I havent updated in a while..I havent had the time or the desire to do so. Do you ever get to the point where the emotional rollercoaster that your on starts to spin in circles and you are back to the begining of the ride...when you thought you were at the end? Then you get off and you just do not want to even think of the rollercoster or the ( Read more... )

So since ive been home I have worked...and worked...took off my clothes and jumped in a pool...and worked. I just got back from setting up and then breaking down a Bat Mitzvah at the JemPle.. It was all kinds of Hell. Im tired and sweaty...and Im actully happy...content. Well I dont have any news really. Im excited. I payed my first phone bill ( Read more... )

I love this song. Showcased in the most odd movie ever. Closer. I guess there was a meaning i just didnt see. Or maybe it was just showing how in relationships, people in general, rip peoples hearts out...love enough to feel their heart rip out, and the time inbetween when they settle for somthing that they arent madly passionat about...just to ( Read more... )