its not okay..

1. Name: ashley nicole rucker-martin ( Read more... )

i hate you..i really do..nothing i ever speak could be more true..you lie to me..tear me down..i hide these pains..only show a frown..how much more can i take?..how much more before i break?..all my love has been taken..my once full heart is broke from breaking..so the time has come to say goodbye..no energy left..no strength to try..if i was to ( Read more... )

i played the game..i played hard..i fought my best..i played to win..and i lost..it hurt me..i was so discouraged and so disappointed in myself and the people around me..but now..i know its okay..oh well..i did my best and that's all that matters..its the heart that matters..so i guess its a matter of which is more important..the end result or the ( Read more... )

i've liked more than i’ve loved ( Read more... )

so..went to costa mesa today..i had to give glenn a ride to norwalk..so i figured why not juss go to costa mesa and say hi to my friends there..it was kinda sad though..cuz i got there like 12:30ish and nat and medium couldnt come..and andy and brian and karina were working..and yeah..that's pretty much all the people i know there..so i was sad..i ( Read more... )

all along i followed blindly..hoping all would fall down nicely..i did what they said..and said i would please..i thought i was happy..instead i'm a disease..i'm so lonely i could cry..everyone dies alone..so why should i expect more?..am i so worthy of justice?..am i that arrogant?..do i believe i deserve it?..i thought i was happy..i felt i was ( Read more... )

i am lonely ( Read more... )

i took a gamble and threw it all away ..i pushed over my stack, thinking i was right..you told me you were a sucker bet,..i played the tune just right ..you told me i would lose, ..but i figured i was right ( Read more... )

i write down the things i only dream of saying..or the things i know i’ll always be afraid to say..or the things i never will say at all..they’re what i’m feeling cuz what i’m feeling is to complex to just stay in me..so i put them out..through my fingers and onto the paper or keys..whichever is available..just so my mind will be free..for those ( Read more... )