i've been ripped open..and there's no one there to help me

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so i was hangin out with ty today..and apparently i was talking about andy a little too much..so tyson throw's his yogurt cup down and stands up and say's 'who the hell is this andy guy and why is he the only thing you talk about?'..haha..it was funny/sad..it was funny cuz he totally freaked out..but it kinda bummed me out..cuz i guess i just talk ( Read more... )

a time comes in your life when you finally get it..when..in the midst of all your fears and insanity..you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out ENOUGH..enough fighting..and crying..and struggling to hold on..and..like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum..your sobs begin to subside..you shudder once or ( Read more... )

"cry until there are no more tears

vent til theres nothing left to say

forget everything you tried in the past

just make sure...

that when you cry, leave the pain behind

when you vent, make God your comforter

when you forget...really...FORGET IT..and move on"

all i wanted yesterday was to sit with heather..didnt want to call her or talk to her online..i just wanted to sit with her.. :(

so this is not a blog that i wrote..and i regret to admit that i got it from GABE of all god-forsaken ppl..but i thought it was pretty applicable to my life and the lives of most ppl i know ( Read more... )

eKLeCTiK gOddEsS (3:54:59 PM): HOLLA ( Read more... )

for the past few moinths i've been dwelling on all sorts of emoness..you name it...its all in..from jealousy to hatred..it was super bad..until i actually found myself hating God..CRAZY!..i know..how can someone hate god?..either way..that's the place i was in..sooo bad that i completely lost my sense of identity..i didnt even know who i aws..i ( Read more... )

yeah..i think i'm gonna delete my lj account..i guess i just find it kinda lame that i not only have an lj..and a myspace..but a facebook..a xanga..and a blogspot..well i dont use my blogspot..it was just a school proj. thing..but yeah..so just for the record..i think everyone should get a xanga..that way we can be friends on xanga!..yeah?..haha