Comments | rules_of_jinx: oh lj! how have i missed thee? let me count the ways.

rules_of_jinx

oh lj! how have i missed thee? let me count the ways.

Jan 08, 2009 03:20

subject heading really just means that a crap-load of serious mess is about to hit my lj b/c i haven't unloaded in a while... here goes.
( cut because this got way out of hand )

life, family

Comments 4

kalina_blue January 8 2009, 09:18:59 UTC

Okay, this is just downnright scary. 95% of this post could have been written by me, including the mother who has fibromyalgia (only that I have even more issues with my mom and haven't talked to her in two years).
I went back to my apartment for university on Sunday evening and classes started this Monday. So far I haven't been to a single one of them. Actually, I haven't been out at all. I didn't even buy groceries, which means I ran out of food yesterday and had to eat really gross mashed potatoes because that was all that was left.
I wish I could tell you how to get out of this depression, but thruth is, I've been trying for years and lately it looks like it's only getting worse.
So, I guess, I just wanted to tell you that I can relate...

rules_of_jinx January 8 2009, 16:13:02 UTC

thanks. :) classes are the thing i struggle with the most. and i know i NEED to do well in school, but i'm just having a hard time caring whether or not that happens. i'm sure in a few years when i have to start paying back my MASSIVE school debt i'll care...

anyway, thanks again just for letting me know you read and care and understand what i'm going through :)

betelin_notecor January 8 2009, 14:11:20 UTC

*huggles* I'm so sorry. I know exactly how you feel. My mum's disabled, and she does nothing. She doesn't keep up with the bills, she doesn't clean, she cooks only if I'm not home and even then it's usually ten-minute-meals, and while she "watches" my baby brother during the day, he actually mostly takes care of himself at three years old (he knows how to get his own food, and even drinks, and can turn on his tv and occupy himself for hours, so my mum never has to get up...) She drives me crazy. X ( ... )

rules_of_jinx January 8 2009, 16:15:13 UTC

you're so precious. thank you. this was just the encouragement i needed. i mean, i just need to realize the problem (and obviously i have) and address it instead of ignoring it. but sometimes it feels like it's this cycle that we will NOT escape. there is hope that that's not true. thanks so much!