I'm an idiot.  I always cry at idiotic things.

 It's weird, there are some things that I just can't see the other side of until i'm on it.  This relationship was one of them...I mean I could see how it would end fairly early on...but i couldn't see past that.  Until you know, I kind of woke up on the other side.  And now I almost like it better on this side...I just need to stop looking back ( Read more... )

The LOST series finale can suck it.  And the people who loved it are fucking dumb.  It was terrible.  It was inconsistent.  Its such a jumble of mysticism and reality and nothing is explained at all except the random ass flash sideways that permeated the last season.  Which SHOULD NOT HAVE EXISTED BECAUSE IT SUCKS.  Give me back Eko.  Give me back ( Read more... )

This is what's getting me through right now.  I want this.  Or anything of Storm with a mohawk.  Posters.  Drawings.  The action figure (which omg is 80 bucks).  I don't know why this is helping.  But it is and I need it.  Anyone who gets me anything that can sit around my room in any fashion of Mohawk storm...I will be so crazy about you. Leave a comment

When I try to think of whether everything has a purpose, exploration is the only thing i can think of that doesn't create an endpoint ( Read more... )

I was born a way that mainstream society would rather i had not been.  And from that day they were my enemy ( Read more... )

Create a moving paradise

I never can make the words sound just right. I think its that the words don't mean enough and I know it. I actually rarely think that scripted behaviors or expressions do justice to what I feel, so I guess this shouldn't be a surprise.

In my mind I can present every element perfectly in a nice concise package of "this is the beautiful truth" but ( Read more... )

I feel like a burden has been lifted.  I feel wonderful, and warm, and like I will float in my sleep.

And I'm realizing that freedom is a daily struggle...and while there are moments that feel truly liberatory, resistance is in the way of living, not just strategized striking back.

To that end, here are my resolutions (yes developed a bit late)

1. 
   get ( Read more... )

I didn't develop any new year resolutions.  I kind of wanted to, so I probably will do so after the fact.  But on a good note, I have one grad school app submitted, and I am spending several days with boy ( Read more... )