Arena

(known to self and others)
independent, silly
Blind Spot

(known only to others)
bold, intelligent, powerful
Façade

(known only to self)
dependable, observant, tense, trustworthy
Unknown

(known to nobody)
able, accepting, adaptable, brave, calm, caring, cheerful, clever, complex, confident, dignified, energetic, extroverted, friendly, giving ( Read more... )

So its really annoying that I seem to only be attracting guys with girlfriends.. or ones that are entirely NOT my type.. Seriously tho.. if you have a gf dont use me as your little fling to hide so your relationship can keep going since you wont have to worry about being stuck with just her.. if you're gonna cheat just break up with them!! doesnt ( Read more... )

Wow it has been absolutely forever since I updated this thing.. I just finished my sophomore year at Eastern, which is really rediculous! Time is flying, but I guess I cant complain... Had a lot of shit happen during the fall semester, then the end of this semester things started looking up which is always a good thing.. Still got some issues, but ( Read more... )

Ugh i'm such a friggin idiot.. I cant stop thinking about the phone call with him tonight and its just eating me up inside. Im such a dumbass. I know hes not with me right now so I gotta just accept that hes gonna go out and have fun. I guess im just jealous and its getting the best of me. But if i get upset when we arent even together then its ( Read more... )

SO me and Nick havent really talked much lately. He called me on thanksgiving for a few and then didnt talk to me after that. Then last night I found out some stuff about another girl and freaked out on his voicemail and he called me back at 5 in the morning asking what the hell was up.. And i explained and he said it wasnt true, so i dunno i felt ( Read more... )

It's Wednesday.. and tonight I get to see Nicholas. I didnt sleep at all last night no matter how hard I tried. Im pathetic and wore his shirt he lent me a long time ago to bed cuz it still smelled like him. I gotta wash it and give it back to him tonight though which sucks cuz its like im giving up even more of him and I dont want to ( Read more... )

I dont know where it all went wrong and I never saw it coming.. Nick confused me and made me feel like there may be another chance, but he said today taht he was just trying to make me feel better and he didnt mean it the way he said it. So that was like a dagger to the heart again.. I cant take this my minds ready to snap if it hasnt already. Im ( Read more... )

So yeah, I am never making a New Years resolution ever again, because everything I wanted last year went completely not in my favor and I mean everything ( Read more... )

So yeah like always the trend seems to be whenever I'm having a bad time I write on this thing so nows a better time than ever to vent.. And since it involves the one person who means more than anything to me its a long one ( Read more... )

Yesterday I had a total breakdown.. Schools been going good, my classes arent too bad and the work isnt there.. yet at least. Cross country was tough the first day of practice, but its been better now. Coach is still being a dick and wants to kick half the girls off the team. At least this year its not me, but it sucks cuz they are my friends and ( Read more... )