So I guess i'm pretty content on my life right now.
Even though i'm really stressing about college etc.
I'm so nervous that I won't get into any of the colleges that I want.
UB is my top choice...no kidding.

I go to Nyc in about a week.
I'm fucking stoked.
yankees+mets+shpping+broadway+art museums galore=
happiest girl in the world.
marc jacobs here I come ( Read more... )

So I found my dad.
I guess that's good.

I got kicked out this weeked.
Fun times.
For no reason either.
So i just got drunk all weekend.
Made me happy.
No really...I couldn't even stand....
hah.

I've been pissed lately.
Zach has a girlfriend.
She'll never love him as much as I did...God knows why.
Fuck.
Then this fucking kid im's me to ask if I've ever fucked ( Read more... )

Vacation was okay.
I'll miss my sammy because I probably won't see her for another year.
Even though I hung out with her brother and ben all week..It was still sort of fun.

I'm really worried about my dad.
I haven't gotten ahold of him all week.
His social security is cancelled.
His voicebox is full.
He's suicidal.
Nuff said.

I'm lonely.
I'm sick.
How can ( Read more... )

Oh shit. So It's back to this again. The depression, the loneliness, the hopelessness. This is what I don't live for but what lives for me . Tight grips on sheets only prevent me from dying in my nightmares. Cold sweat and heart at this point. I can't stop myself from dreaming about you. It just happens. You're stuck in my subconcious it seems and ( Read more... )

So warped tour was amazing beyond beleif. I was miserable at first because I got ditched and Jordan was cranky but it got better after we met up with black Jordan to find out that we could get on stage with fucking senses fail. It was an amazing experience and i sw mad people that i knew and they waved haha.

Asides from the highlight of my summer I ( Read more... )

"amy,...you don't sleep like a normal person or eat like one. you can't be afraid of sleeping ANNND eating." -Eileen Quimby

I wish p&c customers knew what "10 items or less" meant. People are stupid.

There is a typhoon happening in central new york right now. I'll probably die. "But to die would be an awfully big adventure."

I want to be drunk right ( Read more... )

So, i'm depressed again, left here alone to drink my problems away all because of you. Thank you for ruining my life because it's what you're best at. Thank you for not dealing with the guilt i'm giving you for free since you're all out of cash anyway and have to spend it with time to make me feel like complete shit. Thank you for taking away the ( Read more... )

So I guess this weekend went pretty well. Friday I didn't do anything because I thought that this kid was supposed to come over, but he never did. So I sat home all night being asked to parties (because i'm obviously the coolest kid around) and telling people I couldn't come to them because this kid was supposed to come over. Then I just went to ( Read more... )

Right now, it is 2:35 am. I'm tired, but of course I can't sleep, but for some reason today I am feeling like the happiest person alive...for no reason whatsoever. But right now, there is nothing I would change about my life, except maybe the fact that I'm getting emancipated. But right now, i'm so happy. I couldn't ask for more. Bloody Mary's for

So since i'm really bored and its summer i've decided, once again, to bring back the el jay. Basically i'm eating these delicious wheat thins and drinking black pomegranite tea while looking for new bands on purevolume. I have not succeded to find a band that i  haven't either heard of or is actually worth listening to. I know what you're thinking ( Read more... )