i havent updated in a while and thats because im on xanga but i do have one thing to say...aaron has been texting me lately and i have been very strong and just ignored him..but last night i texted him and say that i think we should get together....to say goodbye. he agreed and on monday or tuesday were getting together and were officially ending ( Read more... )

tomorrow is my birthday..and usually id be extremely excited and all that bull..but im sick..i have a respiratory infection..ugh..i wanted my 17th birthday to be amazing and all i want now is to die..this sucks..and im so weak..god..i hate my life...and like i was so excited to be getting a digital camera..and now i have one and blahh..im too weak ( Read more... )

well it sure has been a long time...i just didnt feel like being online...computers and the internet suck..so ive been studying for the SATs and chilling outside and stuff...lifes okay i guess..uneventful..aaron texted me for the first time in two months yesterday...and i pretty much ended it..i was strong and im really proud of myself..he like ( Read more... )

its beautiful outside..and i feel great..im happy and i can not wait for summer..i wish it would be with my room 2's but i really just need the weather..i wish it was my last one hear..but im not that lucky..one more year though..wow..just one more year..its amazing...i really just cant wait to know what college im going to...and then the rest of ( Read more... )

ok so im about to write a really meaningfull emo entry...b/c i was inspired to do so by a girl that i dont know...here goes ( Read more... )

i need weed...my life sucks...i want to die...i need to stop being so fucking emo...i need to smoke a lot more...so im at the point of no feeling...i miss gary bodker...a lot...i just need someone to talk to..a lot..i need a new friend..a lot...i need to get off this island..very badly..i need to stop being addicted to myspace cuz its fucking gay

so im difting away from my best friend..jarry if your reading this I MISS YOU...i dunno..since he hasnt had the same vacay we havent been hanging out and im sad :'(...and ive been making plans with allie a lot so i dont know if ill ever see him...thats a sad sad thing ( Read more... )

so i should probably update..its been a while...my life has hit an all new low..im so pathetic its funny...ok lets see..i smoked on friday monday tuesday thursday and today...and like on wed and thurs i couldnt feel my body...like i was perfectly fine in my head but i couldnt feel anything in my body it was so weird..so finally thursday night i had ( Read more... )

holy shit my life has been off the hook since tuesday..if you ever thought i could become anymore of a pothead...you were totally fucking right...all i do is smoke weed and i love it...i did some pretty fucked up things but whatever..im not gunna care anymore...this summer is gunna kick ass HOLLERRr

so this is a public entry...
ok lets just say i get bored with guys that are not named aaron very easily...and i really hate that..but i miss him..