Three weeks until I say goodbye to Alerbahma.

Can't wait.

I will loose touch with everything from this fucking soul draining shit hole.

I am listening songs that feel as if they pump life back into this lifeless and meaningless corpse.
A glimpse of the past, pictures flash by in rapid succession upon the back of my eyelids.

This year has no memories.
I'll always miss the past.
Even this day will be missed at some point.

Shit it's been one year since I have worked a job ( Read more... )

We all lie.
There is no love left.
No loyalty.
No brotherhood.

Only ourselves through it all subconsciously or consciously we are out for ourselves.

Humanity...I am ashamed to be apart of such a disgusting waste of time and space.
Here's to the end.
Sweet release.....and eternal sleep.

I need a reason, just one for anything. To try, to succeed, to kill, to steal, to die. Everything feels as if it's teetering can't tell if I am coming or going. Don't know which way it will go honestly.... and I'm pretty sure I don't care. The one thing I am sure of is in the end it won't matter. Sooo I'll keep rollin the dice.

Tilt the bottle up. Wince as it burns the back of your throat the "glug glug glug glug" piercing the silent pain that lies within ( Read more... )

My hands are fucked.

I finally found some good weed and a decent dealer.

Thomas is hanging out again.

The misfortunes of those I hate are all that keeps me going these days, that and cigarettes.
I need a new hobby.
I might start selling....

Fuck I just typed something profound.

Had apologies to people, got out how I actually feel about a situation and girl from last year, hate, the world and world views.
I wasn't an asshole in it.

It was long and well written.
Then I lost it all.

Maybe shit just fucks up if I try to be nice and actually talk about things.

I can.

ahaha haaaaaaaa.

Good to know I can still push some buttons.