the hardest thing to do is say goodbye.
the hardest thing to accept is.. knowing that thereis no growth, there is only regret.
when i look up at you.. and you say you love me..i can't see anything. i can't see the love in your eyes. they are empty- unreadable. i have told you several times i didn't love you anymore.. half the time i just say it to ( Read more... )

just so you know...
my feelings are taking control
i can't help it
i wont sit around
i try my best to let go..
but i dont want to...

note to self.. today has been an impossibly horrible day and there are no emtions.. no anything that can describe how i feel.
love makes me stupid. ='[

for the first time in my life.
i admit, im entirely wrong.
i've shaped into the person i promised i would never be.
and completely, i have lost so much.
at the same time, im fearless yet so scared i can't express it.

i'm mad at my mother. i've blamed her for what happened to me for years now.. and then though conviously i have claimed to "forgive her" i ( Read more... )

I don't even know how to explain everything that's happened lately. . ... ...

Michael and me broke up a while ago.. he claimed it was over "finances". What a stupid reason to break up with a girl right? Yeah.. I know. I pretty much had to get down on my knees and beg for him to take me back. Took a couple days. I was so convinced.. that he was ( Read more... )

i have a job interview on tuesday the 26th at best buy.. 
i dont know what position im getting hired into or.. how much im getting paid
or much about anything
but i really need this job
so cross your fingeres for me

i really, really hope that i do good on the interview and get in..
nobody understands how shitty this week has been for me.
this is the only ( Read more... )

The weight of the world is on my shoulders right now, and I'm trying to brush it off onto anyone who will listen. I feel like I'm running on empty, && that I have been my whole life. Secrets of me....secrets that nobody knows, only the concience of my own mind can withstand to be reminded. Lately, what's been bugging me the most.. is my past. The ( Read more... )

So, I think I'm wayy over-stressed right now. I'm trying to figure out too many things right now, and it's all colliding. I feel like the weight of the world is on top of my shoulders. Ugh, it sucks. I have to register for college before august.. take my frigin admissions tests.. pay.. find the money. Start saving for Italy. I'm scrambling for ( Read more... )

MidnightsLustx06: stupid parentals fightin back and foth ( Read more... )

Well.. things haven't exactly been great lately. I've been rather depressed.. so I decided to start up on this again. I read pretty much everyone elses, so why not give them something to read? I just put in a new layout.. I like it, but there is a lot more work that has to go into it ( Read more... )

Ground Rules ( Read more... )