everything is fine. i dunno why ive been so stressed out latly. its just the first step i take into my house...any drop of happiness just leaves...my parents always blurting out comments about eachother to me...They gave me no faith in long term relationships and that scares me. but im hopefully going to change that. my family does not like me....i ( Read more... )

I feal smothered with mass. I am in a terrible mood...no trigger...just stupid gay depressed mood. I am completly Anxious...my hearts beating but i am tired...i feel alone, and discusted with myself. Its been weeks since i felt like shit, so i guess i had it comming-but id be more satisfied if i had a reason, or something to blame for my terrible ( Read more... )

I had a great weekend ( Read more... )

-Got arrested for "selling heroin"! completly not true i better get away with this shit cuz ill go to jail for a whileee...its a felony...i dont do that stuff(its bad for the health) i was just with a "pal" while he was copping that in the bx and the police desided they didnt like me...and charged me with alll types of shit.There was no transaction ( Read more... )

IM BUGGGGGGGINNNNNGGG OUT! ahhhhh...i just got home....cuz i told my parents i was sleepin out....at like michaeles..(first name that came to mind) and she wa sliek i am going to get u...its almost 4am....and i was like NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! i will come home....so when the people i was with...dropped me off...my mom watched and she was ( Read more... )

I had "special" brownies yesturday and felt really weird...i hung out with jill and some of her "homies ( Read more... )

I dont know whats happening..my life is slowly crumbling...i was quite content for a few weeks...and i dont know what happened. I have really bad anxiety and i keep going into this anoying daze. I guess i will get over it...cuz thats just what usually happens...but as of right now i feel like horse shit ( Read more... )

When I got home this morning...i asked him..."wheres Mom?" he just replied prolly at the liquir store because of you!...they were up all night...your messing them up ( Read more... )

hm...confusion is tapping on my eardrums playing a beat i dont understand...i dont know where im going, nor where i am going to end up ( Read more... )

i had a nice day/night
Im in an insane state of confusion....about so many different things. But i guess its somewhat my fault...cuz i always end up making things confusing,
My tongue is swolen.sux
***the desire to alter ones mind.
BYE