Comments | rutgerberit: "This town is boring you to tears / Nothing in the world ever happens here..."

rutgerberit

"This town is boring you to tears / Nothing in the world ever happens here..."

Mar 19, 2006 04:50

Here we go again ( Read more... )

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noctuary March 19 2006, 05:38:37 UTC

It must be exhausting to think like that all the time. Even I am pooped!
I read it and think things. Nothing bad. Just how I can relate in ways. (not the food thing though. Though you would think I would being a big gal and working with big gals all day. Then again maybe that's it. It's normal for me. It's accepting and non judgemental. Then again I never bothered with body image. I have this incredible way of thinking I am all that and a loaf of bread. I guess having parents who were loving till he died and a mother never saying a bad word about me helps.) I rattled on. Sorry.
"I keep telling everyone how well I'm doing now. Maybe if I keep saying it it will come true"
Actually actions change thoughts and not the other way around. So it could actually happen if you keep saying it!

rutgerberit March 19 2006, 06:00:24 UTC

I hadn't turned six when I began pre-school. On one of the first days one of the kids called me a fatass. I didn't understand what (s)he meant. The others wouldn't play with me. I didn't understand why. I thought I was a good kid. Appearantly fatasses aren't good, I realised over the years when people kept commenting my weight and looks, at the same time as shutting me out. I wasn't one of the fat kids, I was the only fat kid. So I guess it's always been an issue to me. And it's hard to let go of it, you know. I was six when I hid cookies amongst my toys so I could comfort-eat without anyone watching.

I'll keep saying I'm OK. :-)