Comments | ruthiebgr8: offended

ruthiebgr8

offended

Jul 03, 2016 16:29

It's hard not to be offended sometimes. Figuring out how to deal with the emotion is really the difficult part. If it's from someone you don't care about it's easy to say F**k off and leave it like that. But if it's from someone you love deeply, the pain goes all the way to the bottom of your heart. When it's a consistent offense, that hits all of ( Read more... )

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Hey egnightmare July 5 2016, 13:28:13 UTC

I am sorry to hear you are hurting, Ruth. Is there anything I can do to help?

Re: Hey ruthiebgr8 July 7 2016, 06:44:28 UTC

I appreciate the thought, Joe, but I was mostly just venting. Kids hurt their parents. It's a fact of life. Generally they have no clue what they're doing. I'll get over this in time. But thank you so much for your willingness to help!

By the way, egnightmare July 5 2016, 13:30:03 UTC

When I see your user picture, it makes me hungry. Well played!

wlotusopenid July 8 2016, 19:42:59 UTC

I'm not sure what to say.

I don't want you to complete suicide. I would rather see you find a way to have joy again. Maybe talking to someone.

Sending love your way.

suicide ruthiebgr8 July 9 2016, 05:53:58 UTC

I've already decided to take myself out some time in the future when I start getting too ill to care for myself. I *will not* die like my father and his brothers. But that's for the future.

I love my kids too much to be a burden on them. They're already showing signs of not wanting to be around me. That's part of growing up. It's also part of growing up in a dysfunctional family.

I probably need to increase my anti-depressant. I'm working on changing how I think about stuff. It's just a matter of changing my attitude, I think.

Re: suicide wlotusopenid July 9 2016, 15:24:30 UTC

That all makes sense. I had thought your talk about suicide was for now, not a dignified death if/when you are ill.

A combination of increasing your anti-depressant and changing your outlook will probably help. It helped me along with my therapist, and I hope it helps you.

Re: suicide ruthiebgr8 July 9 2016, 16:08:41 UTC

At the time I posted my original msg I was fighting the urge to die but I also knew I'd get through it. I always find a way to do so. Just like I keep myself away from knives, scissors, and other sharp objects when the urge to cut happens. I spend a lot of energy NOT doing some things!!

I'm getting better. This is just a bad stretch. Sometimes it just helps to vent.