People keep saying have a Happy New Year, but do they really care? I really can't picture this year being any better than last. Things are just not the same anymore and I can't determine whether if its for the best or not. Well I guess with the start of the new year I really should have resolutions. I was thinking last night that I could have cut ( Read more... )

It's been awhile since i've written in here but not much is different. I spent most of the time christmas shopping. I'm almost done with my list but i wanted to be finished by now. i hate last minute shopping, especially when i'm doing most of it online and i need it to be here by a certain time. Anyways, life is life. Constantly working, but ( Read more... )

I don't really know what to say about life these days. Just last year I was hanging out with Joey, Marcy, and everyone else. Now just one year later it seems as though so much has changed. I don't see Joey but he stills sees some of the same people and now Carrie is around more. Marcy now has a boyfriend which, I'm happy for her, but I also know ( Read more... )

All I have to say is that I had the best fucking time on my birthday. Too much happened to write in here, but so far that was the best day of my life!

Lately it seems that I'm not in touch with reality like I used to be. I was so pestimistic before, always waiting for something bad to happen or just over analyzing a situation until it was something awful. Now I try to find something good within every situation. Like work for instance. It's not fun but depending on who I'm working with I'll make ( Read more... )

Today was so much fun. I had the day off of work so Joey picked me up around 3pm and we decided to clean the pool. First we went to JBean to get some coffee and talk to Brian for a bit but then we went over to Joey's apartment and got out the cleaning supplies. The pool was discusting. There were cigarette ends, bottle caps, pennies, dead bugs and ( Read more... )

So on July 27 Marcy, Joey and I left for Mississippi(not Alabama like everyone kept saying). We took a train ride which took 15hrs. This was seriously the longest ride ever. Not to mention one of the most boring. We got to see two movies and then for the rest of the time we got to look out the window at darkness. But eventually the train stopped ( Read more... )

So my mother decided that when she picked me up from work that she was going to tell me how I'm once again ruining my life. Apparently that's something I'm good at. I hate how she nit picks at every part of my life and makes me feel like crap for the decisions I have made. She told me that by now I should have everything planned out. I'm 19 and I ( Read more... )

I have no one to talk to at the moment. Marcy's phone is still not working and I don't know who else to call. I don't know what has happened to me but I know I am finding it hard to change. I am constantly tired, but can never fall asleep. I have stayed up for about three days straight now. I guess I should start taking sleeping pills again. ( Read more... )

I'm not going to bring up details of the goings on since last time I wrote. That would take much too long. Today was a pretty short day with not much going on. I had work at 10 this morning and was a couple minutes late. I didn't want to get out of bed this morning and so just layed there for awhile. Finally when I was on my way and close to the ( Read more... )