anybody know what it's like to look at your life one day, and see nothing but happiness and meaning, and then before you know it you're flat on your back on the top floor of a parking garage of Grand Casino Gulfport screaming at the top of your lungs, "Why is this happening to me ( Read more... )

I'm in hell ( Read more... )

My dad wants me to stop livejournal all together now. i think i'm slowly maturing more and more. I just look back on all my past entries and i'm just like... "damn, and i'm 18 yrs old..." but another part says, "But i'm in love with allison"... please if ur readin this post a comment and tell me what you think ( Read more... )

today i had a rather dredful day. started off i had pauls fuckin brother (JOSEPH!!) questioning me about what i'm doing at 10:39 am in the morning... SLEEPING YOU DUMB SHIT! MY EYES BEING SHUT IS A DEAD GIVE AWAY! then i went to allie's house to go get my mouth piece... and i called a couple times and it just kept ringin n ringin no answer both ( Read more... )

today seems... unfinished ( Read more... )

so far... summer sucks. the only times that are good are when i'm with allison. but that's why it sucks: i dont get to be with her (as much as i want) that's pretty much it... all my friends are doin somethin and i've ignored them so long that my phone barely rings anymore. o well. i'll just wait for allison to call me. hopefully this entry ( Read more... )

Today just shows how my life just seems like shit just from a few instances ( Read more... )

You ever... hear a song that makes you think of someone? Of course. Stupid question. But you ever hear a song that you would usually relate to a person, or couple but instead you relate it to yourself through the eyes of God? It's hard to explain, and i can't give u just the lyrics cus u'd be like, "wow ryan..." but i'm gonna give the lyrics that ( Read more... )

dude... i feel like crap and... wait no lemme tell about this shit. i wake up at 8 this morning and i cant swallow because it feels like there's a giant loogie clogged in my throat, so immediately i run to the bathroom and dude it's like dried blood and mucus n green shit... and black... i dunno how to explain it but that's not the worst part of it ( Read more... )

allison... call me now
-ryan