My goal until my birthday:

Clean and sober completely. No smokes, no drinking, no outside influences of any chemical kind.

I even took a shower.

That is all.

Me. Arm sling. Neck brace. Flexeril. Tylenol. Ibuprofen.

Damn motorcycle crashes.

So last night, the boys and I went out to go catch a late showing of ( Read more... )

So, here it is... my life for the last few weeks ( Read more... )

I know of two people that saw my last post before I deleted it ( Read more... )

If ever I wanted my mind and heart to agree on SOMETHING, this would be that time. Damn, I hate it when they fight. Theyre both sooo freaking stubborn. I don't even know who I want to win ( Read more... )

I am "home" alone. Even though I got to spend almost a day in Porterville with family anf friends, I feel alone. Its weird - there is no one here in my complex. Even the Korean kid found someplace to be this weekend.

It's easy to get depressed when one is physically alone, away from everyone they know.

Thats it... just bein' alone.

Is it wrong to view friends as a commodity? I don't mean to devalue the relationship, it is just that I find myself investing in some more than others. Sometimes, I win, others, i lose. Sometimes I invest in one that is going up, other times I 'sell' before I should, and I end up hurting because of it. Or other times, I am invested, and a crash ( Read more... )

Is emotional masochism an actual term? Im thinking I may make that term and name a syndrome after myself if that hasn't been discovered before. I can't ask certain psych major for a few reasons, so this is out to everyone.

EDIT: I am freaked right now. Have to get through it!

Life is dramatic.

Fuck it all. I don't care anymore. I am withdrawing from all drama.

That is all.