welcome to that point in your life where you realize you need to turn around and make some serious changes before your hourglass runs out of sand.

today was just another all-around shitty day in the life of ryan, and honestly if you were to ask me why it was bad, i couldnt give you a straight answer. sometimes i can never seem to figure out what people see in me, or what they view me as. i look at myself and i just see some damaged old piece of merchandise thats been put on the top shelf, ( Read more... )

damn, have i mentioned i hate being sick? this entire day has revolved around me sitting my fatass on the couch and watching shitty tv, such as the Maury show, seinfeld, true tv, everybody loves raymond, AND king of queens. i woke up at noon and ive been sitting here pretty much ever since ( Read more... )

i hate family holidays and awkward family gatherings, its totally not my scene whatsoever. especially when its not even my own family and its totally awkward ( Read more... )

well, for the first time in some while, i managed to dedicate a few entire days to being productive. Crazy right? Mara came home a couple days ago and is here til monday, so ive been hanging out with her and her family for the past two days so far. Today was pretty good overly, i met up with mara early in the morning, ran to saybrook point in and ( Read more... )

So today kindof sucked, in the sense that i didnt really do much of anything all damn day. I woke up at one thirty, wtf? i seriously need to start going to bed sooner. (Mind you its one am at this exact moment in time) So yeah, i woke up in the dead middle of the day and pretty much just lazed around the house while my roomate cleaned, and then i ( Read more... )

ok so clearly its been quite a while since i wrote in this stupid thing, but really, i think its time for me to start writing in it again. as of right now i live in Deep River, with erin dudek. life is okay, im currently jobless and i want to go to school. I am trying to fill out this stupid fafsa shit, but idk how to do it

yeah, accouting final. i better fucking pass i swear to shit. grad rehearsal til 2 then northford after. i miss erin like a MOTHERFUCKER. i better pass i swear to god

graduation is 6 days away. fuck your mother

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