she said it was the way i looked at her when she closed her eyes... i couldnt keep my eyes off of her... her face was perfect.... she said she didnt like it because it made her feel self conscious.... but i did it anyway..... then she would lay her face in my hand and tell me to touch it instead... she said it was more beautiful that way.... so i ( Read more... )

i fell down yesterday... it ripped my pants open on the side and there was a huge gash, probably 4 in. long..... i was putting dirt back in a whole that i had dug and slipped. when i fell, the sharp part of the shovel caught my leg and tor into the flesh.. after picking myself up and dusting off the dirt for the wound, i realized that it didnt hurt ( Read more... )

theres a small misconception when it comes to bleeding.... some people believe its blood poring from open skin, or when you spin around too fast and your nose just cant take it anymore... but, as i have discovered in resent escapades, bleeding is much more deep that just a painful experience.... or maybe it can be defined as a painful experience ( Read more... )

ummmm.... the past two journal entrys have not been my entrys.... apperantly, someone has figured out my very easy to figure out password... i havent been drinking, and i didnt right that poem, even though i liked it....... i believe the dick behind this is greyson west..... so greyson, if you read this ,,, and i find out for sure that its you ( Read more... )

dont make a scene
a crowded air
with the sun shining on your back
we'll turn our skin to bare
and make it happen unwillingly
make this stop unfortunate one
dont bleed a tear this time
dont tell me a lie to kill time

well life sucks ass....... i drink alot so i dont have to deal with it, but it doesnt make a difference, i cant make it right,,, i cant do anything right....

well , its been a while.... i told myself i wouldnt do this....... but i did, so im here..... well... my life , its completely perfect.... in fact, its never been better. ive never been more certain or realized what i wanted more than i am now....... i could tell you why, but that wouldnt be right... if you are one of my close friends, then ( Read more... )

ahhhh.... i realize that its been like twenty years sence ive written in my journal, and that is bad.... i heard someone today on tv say that everyone should have a journal because it keeps you balanced between what is real in your life and what is not.... so i decided that i would let a few things out.... ok here goes....... im probably about ( Read more... )

hey,,, well... i had to go a whole day of school whith only one contact in.. it really sucked.. i played ping pong during lunch and 5th hour,, and i i sucked ,,, i couldnt read or write or anything... it really blew alot... ill never do that again...

yeah well.. prom .. .ha ha.... its such a joke... everyone buys like 200 dollar suits and dresses to stand around for a few hours and take a picture... sounds like we all have some messed up priorities..