Not directed at anyone in particular.

[ryrie]

I am so sick and fucking tired of everybody's psycho fucking-babble bullshit about how I'm going down the wrong fucking path and that I'm fucking destroying myself. Did it ever fucking occur to you people that maybe this is my fucking life and my fucking body and I can do whatever I damn-fucking well please with it? I realize that you fucking "

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[smilinzombie]

hey hey I got kurt cobain's journals yesterday and have already read them all the way through... you were right, way good stuff.

as for caring and passenger seat lifestyles and your rant... the fact it, it is your body but people who truly care about you don't want to see you "drive" it straight into a horrendous accident. I mean, reading Kurt's diaries, you can see the crap he went through because of drugs and that in the end, they did not help him. I don't think anyone is trying to control you so much as they want you find a better pathway you can drive yourself. Drugs should not be an artistic catalyst and if you need chemicals to be put in a good mood or any of that end, then life is fairly tragic, in my opinion. I just don't want you to become a shell. You have a lot of love and energy and if you could focus them on something that doesn't rot your body I believe great things could be accomplished.

love love love
LenLen

[ryrie]

You are so incomprehensibly amazing, I don't know how you do it, but you always say the right thing. I feel better now.

Thank you.

[smilinzombie]

well thankyou so much sweetheart. I'm glad you feel better. ^.^ and your welcome, of course!

p.s.- i'm so proud of you for sticking to your vegetarianism! XD

Well...

[awk_sil]

If you're looking so great, why don't we get a picture? ;)

[playnejayne2002]

When you constantly put out information (publicly I might add) about what you are doing to your body you open yourself up to critisism.
When you constantly complain about how unhappy you are about what you are doing to yourself (which you have in this journal and in person to whoever will listen to you) you open yourself up to getting advice.
When you constantly wave your hands and scream while jumping up and down you're going to get attention and it will not always be of the " we love you, you're so great" variety.
But you have to remember your the one that wanted the attention.
It's your choice to either suck it up or whine like a spoiled brat when you get the attention you dont want.

btw, saying fuck in various forms every other word does not make you seem mature or tough or even angry.

[ryrie]

It's not just all that. I really admire the Mike's and I've realized that no matter how polite I am to them, I haven't heard a single nice thing from them in I don't know how long unless I'm telling them I'm leaving. Do they seriously hate me or something?

A little bit of edification when I'm not being a shit would be nice.

[playnejayne2002]

Well, dear heart , part of the problem is they can never tell when you're being polite because you never truely seem sincere to them.
It's that whole " learning how to be real" thing we've talked about.
When you are 100% geniune, people can tell and will respond differently.

[ryrie]

But what is sincere?

[calimtnredneck]

rite on------if your happy with who and what
you are --tell the rest to mind their own fuckin business

huggszzzzz
cory

[csteven]

Hey, you still around?