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[rzrblad_confuzd]

ok so im really fuckin freakin out right now!!! my god damn mother just sent me a email and oh my god i don't get her. i swear i don't think i have ever wanted to spiral down the path of self destruction as bad as i do RIGHT THIS FUCKIN MOMENT!!!!! this is seriouly the last thing i need right now. she has no freakin clue how much pain she is

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[grey_cain_3]

well, dying would be very very bad, sweety. just take deep breaths, calm down and just, you know, step back a bit and assess. She probably has no clue how much she hurts you (that or doesn't care) and is just trying to form a relationship with her daughter, you know. I'm not saying she's right or even has a right to be badgering you like that right now, I'm just saying a possible reason for her behavior. It might be a good idea just to, at some point, tell her that you want some space and basically blatantly lay it out for her unabridged. I don't know, I'm just putting an option out there and such, you know. Just keep on keeping on, sweety. You've survived so much worse than this. And I know you'll survive this too. ::HUGS:: More than one letter in one day is just fine with me if you want to. Keep on keeping on, sweety. Talk to you soon. ::HUGS more::

[rzrblad_confuzd]

yeah, i guess the most obvious is that dying would be bad, but sometimes i feel like it would be a hell of a lot easier. but yeah i wrote this post like moments after reading her email...i woulda emailed you but i didn't have much time before i had to go pick up my husband so i just spilled it out here. truth of the matter is i have nicely and bluntly stated to her to back off and give me space. that she has hurt me beyond belief and i am not ready to deal with it and that i have way to much going on in my life to deal with her drama...but for some reason, she remains clueless and still finds time to email, call and leave messages and text messages picking fights and just being flat out rude! i would love to think it was because she wants some sort of relationship with me but i honestly i just think she loves causing pain upon people. i don't get her at all. thanks for your comment tho hun, it helped loging on today and seeing one from you!!! HUGS

[blade_addict]

sweeite... what happened? e-mail me love.
give me your mom's e-mail addy too. I have a couple of things to say to her. maybe if she hears it from someone else she might understand that she's just malicious.
i love you so so so much!!!

[rzrblad_confuzd]

i love you so so so so so much to hun!!!!!!!! to freakin death!!! im emailin you RIGHT NOW!!!