my life is becoming more and more unbearable every day. at least i have my cats to keep me company.

do i actually have any friends?

im so worried about the future. not our future. just my future.

so theres a very good chance i will be kicked out of college for something i didnt do.

fuck my life.

"I couldn't leave you even if i tried."
"Then don't try"
"I won't. As long as you want me."

Why do I still feel like pieces of me are falling apart? I have to hold myself together to keep from shattering.

in the evening there was dancing and love songs, friends and singalongs, late nights and low lights, come on get highers, and i love yous.

and in the morning there was talking and laughter, excuses, misuses, loose lips and fingertips, and i love you toos.

i would do anything, ANYthing for you! just ask!

my life has been taken over my messiness and writing

and i love volleyball and the men that play it.

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