wednesday ( Read more... )

i thought i was special.
i REALLY REALLY did.
i even rethought everything over
& all sorts of shit like that.

but i'm not special.
i'm just a fool.
i'm just another one in the bunch.

& it's cool.
....i guess =/

i wish someone
could even fathom
how i feel
at this very moment
in time.

i'm happy.
i'm sad
i'm sad some more
i'm happy
then, ultimately,
i'm sad again.

i think it's time i move out of this shithole
& on to better things.

This is fucking pathetic ( Read more... )

i do not know
how much neglect MORE
i can possibly take.

i really do not know how to sum up how i feel.
i love him; i miss him; i just wish this was easier.
& it's only going to get harder, & harder, & harder.
__today is our 3 & 3/4 years. ♥


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Joe left for tour monday night ( Read more... )

dearest 5 people who actually read this:i have my agenda out, so start making plans ( Read more... )

so my hairs brown now ( Read more... )

i have nothing to update about.
so why am i doing it?
i don't know.

joe and i are fighting over some dumb crap.
theres one more day til summer
2 more days till i get my hair dyed
and 3 more days til i meet "booking agents" in NYC.

__this summer better be good.
seriously, guys/girls. ♥