of late

[s2658179]

a week ago i was contentedly coasting,  feeling satisfied with the fun and frolic of summer.  night 'fore last i rashly dosed myself and that seemed to pull the carpet out, and now i feel a sort of baseline dread.  i did just prior to this dosage have a rather sobering conversation with my mother in which she, actually correctly though i disagreed

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[onemoredube]

DO SOMETHING SCARY

[anonymous]

hi shawn,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HLcIQEbLyUg

-kris

[twiggyinstereo]

Hey Shawn, I went through a similar void/meltdown/existential crisis type thing when I lived in Montreal. Wondered what I was doing there - was I just livin' cheque to cheque working a shitty job just to support being and hanging in the "coolest" city? I was cold alot, poor alot, spent too much money on weed and although the train tracks, thunder storms and quebecois bands were fun, after awhile I couldn't justify being there. And I was only 19 then! My solution? Move back to BC. I'm not saying this will be the right choice for you, but maybe Montreal loses it's mystique after awhile. I have decided it is a super place to visit but I'm happy with my decision not to live there anymore. Maybe you need to pull a Cheadle and go to Mongolia for a bit? Love Gabrielle

[s2658179]

certainly a thought that has crossed my mind of late. montreal can feel a bit consuming, and a western retreat seems attractive not infrequently, especially with all the fine people, including yourself, who inhabit it. truth is though that i'm not sure that relocation is gonna help with this little pickle, and in some sense montreal is after a year already seeming more full of possibilities for me than bc did after three. but i am thanking you for your earnest advice, and it is as always heartening to hear of others' similar hardships.