two days of feasts end.  one, intimate and random, and tasty in an off-the-cuff way, and rounded out by a jam featuring horns and varying skill levels which turned out to be very fun, very playful, and the other (feastwise), more decidedly decadent, like fat-was-rendered, flour-was-sifted decadent, and also more sullen for me, who is lately not ( Read more... )

summer wanes
i did for once find comfort in hedonism, but as it was sanctioned by the season, I'm anticipating a new leaf.

numerous sunrises viewed alone from the balcony.  aches for others, comfort by myself (mostly).

sometimes i worried i was becoming  some sort of nihilist.  but i think I'm actually just confused and have a tendency towards ( Read more... )

oh my god

but you would be shocked at the apparent beauty of my home

something in my room smells like piss! and not another day will pass before i have determined what it is (and removed it!)!!!

t did i eat today ( Read more... )

a week ago i was contentedly coasting,  feeling satisfied with the fun and frolic of summer.  night 'fore last i rashly dosed myself and that seemed to pull the carpet out, and now i feel a sort of baseline dread.  i did just prior to this dosage have a rather sobering conversation with my mother in which she, actually correctly though i disagreed ( Read more... )

went to a little get together in celebration of an engagement
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did you know that in the last ten  days i have: kissed/been kissed by a BABY, and spent time lounging on an enormous beanbag chair with a DOG?

well it's hard to sum up long periods of life such as come between my entries here, so though the desire's there for me to tell you all of what has occurred, and though there are some of you out there who i would want and probably will actually will do this with,  it's just slices of life for now, meaning maybe the last week or so:  abrupt change ( Read more... )