Is Time. To be prepared for the downfall of the brain. It is time to just not, be. It is the time. 

So it's a bit of a mess in my head. Hard to wrap around things. Random things. I start to think about all the ideas I wanted out of life for myself now that I am almost 32 years of age. Like marriage, kids, education, a place to call mine. I have the kids, two of them, both boys. Damian and Jax. Man they are so little and great and have no idea ( Read more... )

Everyone I know or have ever known is a Nigger.

In it's truest definition.

I wish nothing but horrible things for them.

They deserve nothing because they have earned nothing.

It's all a game to them.

I will watch it all burn around them. 

People like to think they can change. In fact they need to feel they can change. Having that ability helps someone cope with themselves. Since that is the battle right? The everyday struggle, the constant unknown of how to act, to behave, learning to speak correctly--afraid to fail or die. The worst enemy you will ever have is the one that looks ( Read more... )

The future is just old age and illness and pain.... I must have peace and this is the only way.- James Whale ( Read more... )

 I don't want to eat anymore ( Read more... )

 There was this girl named Theresa. A woman I was really in love with. She told me that she was also in love with me ( Read more... )

 Today i deleted my facebook ( Read more... )

 I want to put a drill through my head. So that my thoughts can leak out quickly from the hole. I want my brain to suffocate. Slowly, feeling life slip from it's grasp ( Read more... )

I am going to have a child.

This child will never know it's father. Sure I'll be there, but I wont really be there.

I'm leaving.

I'm fading.

I am gone.

Soon. Real soon.