did you know that there are 300 hundred calories (at least) in a low fat oat fruit scone from starbucks? know wonder why i gained weight. fuck, i wish i had known that before. if that is "healthy", then shit...whats the regular shit costing this bod.

i am here at the fuckin' library using this computer cuz my internet isn't working at home. this sucks. i just read erin's (parttimebitch) journal. geez, i love her to the fullest. neways. work was whatever. i miss chris. funny huh, i just got off of work and now he started. how utterly inconvinient is that? anywayz, i have been craving ( Read more... )

well, i am done with finals.HIP-hip-hooray. so i am feeling relieved. i actually know that i have 2-a's, but i am not sure if my other grade is a b or c. hmm, anyways, it all over! we start back up jan 5th. so till then i am jsut working my ass out so i don;t get cut form the team this. year. how much would that suck? totally a big phat one ( Read more... )

Well, i have been so not around forever-one could say. my last entry must have been in july or august? hmm, i think. well, i went through a lot of mumbo jumbo dealing with not moving to San Diego. I had to find an alternative school which ended up being CSUH. i am actually very pleased with the quarter system. i like it fast paced. Also, i ( Read more... )

well it has been so fuckin long since i have been on my journal. hmm, i need something right now and i am not so sure hat it is. i am thinking that i need ckaje really bad right now. i really miss the,m. erin is in fresno, camie is back in school as is kris, and annie i have no clue. but in any case i just need something. i love starbucks! ( Read more... )

well. i have no idea how to explain. still broken up with Maurice. he wants me back. i still love him. i really liek this guy-been dating him for bout a month. hes super cool. i have a new guitar. must learn to play. work is good. gotta run. amber is calling.

well, there is this super cool guy that i fancy. but it is all too soon. at the moment i am not looking for anything serious. but it is cool to know that i am hangin out with someone who has potential-someone that i wouldn't regret spening my time with. in any case, i am staying home for school. i need to figure out my lan. so far i have ( Read more... )

yep...what the fuck is whats up. i am always feeling like things are all fuckin up in the air right now. i had a cool talk with my manager. it looks like i should be a shift supervisor soon. she said ina year i should be an assistant manager. cool shit. i hella want that. i must work hard. mm, a lot of wierd shit is happeneing in the ( Read more... )

i am so depressed. uh, this whole break-up is really hard now. it is probably the way it happened. and not seing him for a whole year makes it weird too. um, what the hell am i going to do for school. i need to get recentered. breaths in breaths out. i am on my way to pick up dad at the airport.
bye

why must my father suffer
will i ever fully connect with anyone-just as friends?
will i ever understand my confusion